New Job… No Time

So I finally got a new freelance gig. I am not sure what to think about it since I have only been working there since Friday. It’s more on the Public relations and marketing side but it’s a media job.

My new issue this week has been trying to divide my new found freedom between my responsibilites at home. My mother and my grandmother have been kind enough to take care of my son while my partner and I are at work. I still can’t help but shake this feeling that I am some how missing out. Yeah I am scared of Mommy FOMO. I never thought I would be one of those mothers.

When I was studying to get my degree I remember admintly and definatly telling everyone who was willing to listen that even when I did have kids I would not be a stay at home mom. I also was sure I would rasise my kid in NYC. I am kind of glad I didn’t do NYC while my kid is still in diapers. I can’t do people complaining about my baby being a baby.

Until now, I have had my son with me 24/7. We woke up and his schedule was mine. Now I get up before he even wakes up and I am the person who spends the least amount of wake time with him. Today my partner took him swimming on today. It was his day off and my family had invited him over. I didn’t know how to feel as my mom scrolled through picture and video of an experience I wasn’t there for.

However this job provides so much more for him. More toys, more baby music classes, more mommy and baby yoga etc. I spend the weekends with him. He still wants to be around me when he sees me. Maybe I am just beeing really dramatic.

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5 comments

  1. thatnewcrunchymom · May 25, 2016

    Awww, I am sorry you are having an emotional transition ❀ I'm sure your baby will love you no matter what! πŸ™‚

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    • Weirdo Mommy Rah · May 25, 2016

      I never would have thought I’d be one of those mom’s. This morning he cried when he saw me leaving and I had to sneak out. I will get over itπŸ˜€.

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      • thatnewcrunchymom · May 25, 2016

        Aww, I am so sorry. Being a mom is so hard! They never truly warn you about important moments like these!

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  2. beeorganizedwithpamela · May 27, 2016

    Hang in there Mom. There is never enough time. Just keep doing your best.

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