Breasticiles (My Breastfeeding Story)

I just want to say… I don’t breastfeed my kid. I did at one point, but I don’t currently. Neither makes me or anyone else a bad mom.

I grew up with my free spirit mother as the oldest of her 4 kids. I have seen so much parental nudity that I am sure most people would vomit at the thought. Although I myself am not as comfortable with nudity as my parents, this did give me a healthy (some might call European) way of looking at nudity. With that being said, I have seen so many breast that it doesn’t phase me anymore. So that is why I was so surprised that there are people out there disgusted with breastfeeding.

When I got pregnant I was so nervous about breastfeeding. The idea of a little human depending on me not only as caretaker but also my body for food scared me. On top of that the hospital where I gave birth too many people were too gun-ho about pushing me toward either or. My son was born with high bilirubin levels. He was a having trouble latching on as well. I was at least able to pump enough for him by the time I left the hospital.

I have always been an advocate for breastfeeding before I even had a kid. What I don’t get are these people who are grossed out by it. I once had someone say that they thought some women bared their breast for nursing to get attention. I can tell you in the short period of time that nursed my son that I have never once felt comfortable baring my breast. I did it know that my child was hungry and I had to do what I had to do.

However after a being in the hospital when my son was 4 months old. I had to completely give up on breastfeeding. I don’t feel bad about it. I am one of those people where if I did my best then I won’t fret if it fails. I tried. My son latched on a couple time , but by 6 months he was completely done.

Now this another surprised I found out was that people shame women for not breastfeeding?! What has this world come to where people want tell others how to raise their kids. If woman doesn’t want to breastfeed her child for whatever reason that is her choice. I don’t care how vain the reason. It’s her body and her choice. Breastfeeding takes a lot of women. As someone who has a disorder that makes her constantly tired on top of medication, nursing would take my whole life away. I was willing to make that sacrifice for my child, but I can see how others would choose to adapt for themselves.

Many women chose to nurse or not to nurse. How about we support any woman for whatever decision.